Since I was just a little girl I have always had troubles with goodbyes. If you didn’t already know because you haven’t read my earlier posts my parents were divorced so my brother and I were forced to go back and fourth from one state to another state every year.
I loved with my dad during the school year and saw my mom every summer, every other christmas and every other spring break.
Going to my moms house I would get so excited. It was never hard to tell my dad goodbye because I saw his face everyday all year pretty much. I was such a mamas girl and loved to visit my mom.
Those were the best summers EVER!
We would have so much fun shopping, or watching movies, swimming, going to wet n wild or circus circus(my mom lived in north Las Vegas then). There would always be something fun to do at moms.
Towards the end of our visit I would start getting sad a week before I had to go back to my dads and I would sit in my moms lap everyday and just cry and tell her I didn’t want to go. It wasn’t only hard for my brother and I to live our mom but it was really hard for my mother to send us back every year especially since we were so young. She missed out on a lot of our childhood. Softball games, soccer games, award ceremonies, field trips, etc. I really wish my mom could have been there for all that.
The day it was time to go back to dad’s I would be ok until we got to the airport gate and had to say goodbye to mom I would cry to the point where I couldn’t breath and the whole plane ride back I would cry. I would be so depressed and cry for about a month after leaving her. I always had something special from my mom that she would spray with her perfume so it smelt like her which helped. At night time I would look at the moon and sing our song…
I see the moon. The moon sees me. The moon sees the one that I want to see. God bless the moon and God bless me. God bless the one that I want to see.
To this day I still sing it even though I know live with my mother. Its a part of me and I will never forget it.
The whole reason why I told you that story was because I thought after I turned 18 that the whole saying goodbye would be easier because i could come and go on my own terms but when I decided to move with my mom I cried like a big baby in the airport because saying goodbye to my dad the way I did was really hard.
I cried about that for about a week and finally as I thought that was the last hard goodbye I would ever have to say it striked me again yesterday morning when I took my boyfriend to the airport so he could go back to North Carolina. I cried and it really hurt my heart that he was leaving.
Point of story I hate goodbyes. I feel as if I say goodbye I will never see you again. So from now on I will use the term see you later or see you soon because I know I will and it guarentees I will.
That is all!
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ah Lauen..my heart… you remember the moon song…and I hear you singing lullabyes to Caden that I sang to you… you always took my heart with you when you left and looking back… there maybe have been a different way to have done things…. but at the time keeping you and Josh together seemed more important…at least I thought through all of it you would always have each other…. I am already an emotional puddle and I just cried my way through this…. I love you…to the moon and back…a hundred gazillion million times… x infinity plus 1…. it has been wonderful beyond belief having you here with me…. thank you….and you are a good mama…a wonderful mama…Little Monkey Man chose good.
look i am so verklempt I mis spelled your name…. LAUREN 🙂
at least you didnt call me my sisters name lol
hahaha the pg one? LMAO I love you pumpkin..sunflower..heart moon…we should go shopping..at 2 maybe? I would buy you cookies… 🙂
I can’t even imagine how hard that must have been for you and your mom especially the leaving! Isn’t it wonderful that you have such happy wonderful memories of spending time together! I think maybe being apart made you even closer because your time was limited and you made every minute count! I can sure understand why you don’t like goodbyes! I love reading your blog Lauren! i’ll bet you get your writing talent from your mom!!! Have fun with my great grand baby! Many hugs from your cyber grandma! 😀
it surely has made my mom ana i very close. she isnt only my mother she is my best friend. I have so much respect for my mom and love idk what I would doo with out her. I use to write storied and even got to go to a writing convention in fourth grade one out of two people from my school. Thank you very much I will def have fun with little caden he learns somehing new everyday.
Isn’t that wonderful that you and your mom are so close and are best friends too? That’s just wonderful and you guys are so lucky to have each other!!
And I ‘m not surprised at all that you went to a writing convention in 4th grade. I can tell you are a naturally good writer and express yourself very well and in an interesting way that is so rare in the world today! Have a great day enjoying Caden!!! YAY 🙂